Self-understanding
“So instead of being so self-critical about your ‘lack of passion,’ ask yourself what you care about — and start really pouring yourself into it without questioning why you’re doing it. If it’s the thing you’re supposed to be doing, you’ll find that it becomes an obsession, which then becomes a ‘passion.’”
It seems like only yesterday that I came onto this campus, completely new to college, unaware of what challenges lay ahead of me. Over the course of the year, which has passed in a frighteningly fast blur, I’ve come to learn things about myself - strengths, limitations, motivations. And while I can’t say that this knowledge is a good thing, the only thing within my power is to keep stepping forward with an open mind.
I don’t think I’ve found that “passion” quite yet, and at the same time I wonder if I can ever be passionate about things. My lifelong inability to ever stay dedicated to things I’m interested in leads me to believe this.
It’s scary, this feeling — this deep fear that I may never amount to anything significant. I will never be satisfied with myself, but will I at least be grateful for what I have? With nearly a whole school year past me, I have yet to find that something, that elusive “destination” that I will inevitably reach. While I understand that some things are out of my control, I wonder what I can do now to grow, to better myself.
By the time I’m out of here, what kind of person will I be?
