that whole “future” issue
Tonight my mother and I discussed future careers over the phone. While I’ve made it open that I wish go to into the biomedical field, I haven’t exactly decided what I want to do. It started off with the Asian dream of being a doctor, then it slowly evolved when I realized maybe it wasn’t what I wanted to do. I’m still a Biology major, and I’m still taking science courses, but after this year I’ll have to decide what I really want to do in terms of classes, majors, etc.
It’s strange to be so back on track, shakily as it may be. Just a month ago I was angsting over my future and now I’m steadily heading towards a goal. I think it’s because I finally realize that a concrete goal isn’t necessary for facing tomorrow. It’s good enough to just have a general idea. Freaking myself out every single day while contemplating life after college probably isn’t the best way to handle the problem, right?
I’m probably going to always handle college the same way I handle thesis statements: with a general outline that’s easily revisable, but still centered towards something. I can’t possibly contemplate life with no aim, but I have finally taken that chill pill and decided to relax, and see where all this takes me.
I have this problem too, but I started off with the other two Asian dreams (business and law). I agree that it’s invaluable to have a general direction to go towards; I, on the other hand, still don’t really have a clue where I’m headed. While right now I’m on a track towards economics, I know that I don’t really want to major in economics, but at the same time I’m being tugged in a million directions by a bunch of different interests (computer science, east asian studies, finance, public policy, or even architecture).
I have a really laid-back attitude too, in the sense that I believe that I’ll eventually figure things out along the way. For now, I’m just putting one step forward at a time and focusing on the things in front of me. My only fear is that perhaps this approach is too short-sighted, and that I need to figure what I want to do and fast before it’s too late. It’s a dilemma I’ve been struggling with from the very beginning, and I’ve always been envious of those pre-med kids who have a defined path to take.
So if I were to use your essay metaphor, I’d say that I have the prompt in front of me, and I’m waiting until the day before it’s due to do it.
